James 1: 2-4 Romans 5:3-5 Psalm 119:71 Psalm 23:4 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

Count it all joy. Glory in tribulation. That’s not easy having struggled with chronic illness and chronic pain for 15 years, but had I not had times when my pain was so bad I didn’t think I could endure it, I wouldn’t have experienced God’s presence as I have. What a great comfort I have found in God as I seek Him in his Word and in prayer. He has reached out to me and I have felt his presence and comfort and strength at those dark, most painful times when I teetered at the edge of suicidal thoughts due to not wanting to endure anymore pain. He has spoke to me through His Word and comforted me and taught me and I am so grateful. There is nothing better than to fellowship with God. I have experienced God’s sufficient grace and strength to keep me going all because of 15 years of chronic illness.

God has also taught me much about health. I had undiagnosed Hashimotos for years that ultimately destroyed my thyroid and caused my cancer. Ask your doctor to check for thyroid antibodies if you are struggling with your health. I’ve likely been estrogen dominant for years as well, as I have had much fibrocystic disease in various organs. I learned about an anti-inflammatory diet and have decreased my pain much because of it. Though it isn’t fun to eat dairy free, gluten free, and low sugar, its worth it to decrease my pain. I’ve learned about mold and how that affects my health. God has been faithful to teach me and lead me in healthier paths. I am grateful. Often we suffer health issues because of our own unhealthy eating habits. I have always had such a sweet tooth.

So it isn’t easy to glory in infirmities and pleasure in weakness and pain, but its worth it to experience more of Christ and His grace. I want more of Jesus… that I might know Him and the power of His resurrection.